im home with E., my fathers wife.
were sitting still doing norhing...id rather be with mom.
dad should have told me he wont be home.................

im gonna be 18 soon. on tuesday. but i dont give a fuck about it. i feel like ive got noone. no friends...trying to make a fuckin birthday party for my own! its such a shame. but what should i do? maybe saying home would be better. maybe doing nothing living my life in deadness...well lets say that is me. dedaness attributes me the best. that feeling of emptiness.
no matter how hard i try to be a general favourite...its useless.

it seems that my broken reationship with D. soon will be fixed.
since then chriss and me havent talked a single word.

everything sucks...thats all i can say.
sweet 18...FUCK YOU!